The wind whipped through her brown hair covering her face as she tried to pull it all back into a ponytail as her toes slipped into the cold water. A shiver went through her as she kept walking into the water up to her ankles. Her blue jeans were rolled up to her calves and she was trying to find where she could walk and not get in to deep or slip in and get soaked all the way through. With a smile she turned to him shyly standing on the shore shaking his head at the idea of even touching the almost ice cold water.
"Its not that cold."
"You say that as your covered in goosebumps and shaking a lot. I will stay right over here and be nice and warm and not wet." He laughed at her and settled down on the big green blanket and cracked open a soda.
"Your missing out you really are." She ran her hands through the water and looked at how clear it all was. Multicolored rocks smooth as glass shimmered in the afternoon light and reminded her of how simple things could be. THey had found a very nice spot by the river it had been a bit of a struggle to get there with three side trails and then some climbing down but it was worth it for a bit of peace and quiet. Looking back over at him she couldn't help be a bit sad friends were good to have friends who would actually hug you would be better. Though complaining was not on her list of things to do today it was just enjoying things and seeing where they might go but probably no where was the plan.
"If you keep looking at me like that I might think its creepy." His laugh filled the air around them and she blushed suddenly so much that she thought she might faint from the blood rush but she took a few quick skips and was out of the water onto the river bank.
"I was just trying to think how mad you would get if I started to splash you. Nothing creepy you just wish you has a stalker as awesome as me." With a light smile and a heavy heart she flopped down onto the blanket next to him she was laying on her stomach with her feet kicking leisurely in the air. Only the sounds of birds and the lapping of the water broke the silence and they laid next to each other over a foot apart just thinking to themselves and being alive for a moment.
"Have you ever just wanted to run away from everything that you are and try to find a place to start over?" His question caught her off guard and she jerked her head to look over at him. His dusty brown hair caught the sun and looked blonde and it made her laugh to think of him as a real blonde and he just kept looking at her confused. "I never thought it was a funny question."
"I never thought you would think about something like that." She countered laying her head back down on the blanket and only half looking at him as she considered a good answer.
"I think about a lot of things more then you would even imagine"
"I would if I could. If I could up and leave everything here and everything that is linked to me and start over I could be who ever I want. But then what happens when I realize I hate the new me as much as I hate the old me. It would be so wonderful if you were the kind of person who could just pick up and run and change every few years when life was to much. Avoid the jobs that take away your soul. Run from the people who betrayed you. Hide from all the embarrassing ex's or crushes that feel through. Not have to worry about a family who demands the world from you. It would be so hard to do it all the time though unless you were that kind of person. If leaving was easy. If there was no guilt. If no one would miss you it would be easy. Having said that I wouldn't want to be the kind of person no one would miss. I want to be cared about by someone anyone really I just want to have something to do with someone." It hadn't occurred to her how much she wanted to be needed and how hard she worked for it until she started to talk and a few tears came to her eyes. Quickly she sat up and turned away from him hoping he hadn't noticed and she looked up at the trees around them and subtly brushed back her hair and the tears away from her face. "What about you?"
"Leaving has never been hard for me I just never have had a reason to leave really." There was no emotion in his tone he was trying to make it sound so simple but she didn't want to ask him to elaborate they were very different.
"Leaving is very serious for me. I don't like to do it." She said still looking up at the trees