Four Letter Moon

Snow Moon
Dead Moon
Lost Moon
Soul Moon
Full Moon
Cold Moon
Deep Moon
Dark Moon
Fate Moon
Blue Moon
Torn Moon
Doom Moon
So many things
Lurking in your shadows
The things you hide
The things you seek
The things you whisper
The things you yell
Hear me
Feel me
Forever all your own
You are my moon

Perfect

Don't you want to be me
The good girl
Running with the bad boys
The good girl
Running her own life
What would you do?
To get to be me?
To get to live suck a perfect
Gorgeous
Amazing
Never ending
LIE
Hurting on the inside
So brave to you all
Sometimes you see a crack
The tears that fall
But you will never see
What is in me
What would you do?
To be the good girl
With the perfect life
Dancing in the snow
Under a cold light
Red drops all around
Laughter swallowed by night
Don't you want to be me?
Don't you want to die
Like me

Unsure

Time breaks my heart
Waiting
Wishing
Dreaming
Praying
Foolish moments
Needing desire
Each moment so precious
Pleading for one more kiss
Wasting time
Killing time
Destroying thee
Past breaks free
Tearing
Lying
Crying
Is this the future
Step back
Breathe
Breathe
Calm
Serenity
Never lost
Changed often
Thoroughly wronged
Growing stronger
Lost in the folds
Choking
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Try again
Try again
Trust
Faith
Hope
Love
Love
Trust
Love Love
Makes it okay
Fighting is okay
Crying is okay
Loving is okay
Existing is okay

Blink

Breathing
Its harder than you think
Smiling
Its more annoying than you think
Laughing
Its more obnoxious than you think
Crying
Its more fulfilling than you think
Living
Its more chaotic than you think
Loving
Now that's easy

TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER BE WARNED

I remember the first time
I saw her
She didn't mean to be seen
Blond hair
Perfectly styled
(but very brittle)
Blue eyes
Perfect make up
(but a blank stare)
Flawless skin
Perfect pink cheeks
(but everything else so pale)
Perfect body
Bold collarbones
Protruding hip bones
I could count her ribs
Her spine
Tiny Thighs
She took her fingers out of her mouth
Look at me through the open door
She stood up
Brushed back her hair
Flushed the toilet
Washed her hands
Walked away
I saw the X on her wrist
I saw the tiger strips
She made no attempt to hide them
I thought I would never see her again
I was wrong
I see her everyday now
I fix my hair
I wear V neck long sleeve shirts
Taunt skin over bone
I cover new razor marks
I carve it everywhere
"Fat. Fat. Fat. Fat. Fat. Fat"
I bend forward
Fingers in throat
One, two, three
Screw you salad
A quick flush
She looked at me
Tears running down her cheeks
Who are you?
She shakes and trembles
Can't believe I'm doing this
*How can I do this to myself?*
~I just want to be beautiful I tell her.
Perfect
Fragile
Loved
Admired
Wanted
A feather light angel
That's all I want~
*Its not worth it she says*
~I know its not~
*Then stop*
~I can't~
*You can*
~I don't want to~
*Idiot*
~I know~
I smash the bathroom mirror
and walk away again

He said, she said

He said "Say yes"
She said "to what?"
He said "you know"
She said "I don't"
He said "Yes"
She said "No"
He asked "Why?"
She said "I don't know"
He asked "Why?"
She said "I'm sorry"
He asked "When?"
She said "I can't"
He asked "How"
She said "Not sure"
He asked "What?"
She said "Forgive me"
He asked "Who?"
She said "No One"
He asked "What do you need?"
She said "Three little words"
He asked "How about five?"
She said "Try"
He knelt "Marry me"
She laughed "That's only two"
He smiled "I love you, marry me"
She kissed him "yes, yes, yes"

Love Lessons

A stress
A friend
A liar
A confidant
A failure
A genius
In love
In love
Trying
Trying
Trying
Like a lonely river
The burning of the Wind
Kiss
Touch
Bite
Moan
Climax
Rest
In love
In love
Trying
Trying
Trying
Teardrop covered rose
A million cliches
Kicking
Screaming
Crying
Begging
Fighting
Breaking
In love
In love
Trying
Trying
Trying
Happy memories
Beautiful future
Faith
Hope
Dreams
Wishes
Husband
Wife
In love
In love
you can never
try to hard